Tuesday, July 27, 2010

The Pain!!!

It's official. I have gone back to being a total wuss about pain. Before I got my stimulator dealing with insanely high pain levels was nothing to me. It was a walk in the park. In fact, in college my physiology professor ran a few tests with me and we found out my body reacted in the complete opposite way to pain than it should (when my pain levels went up my heart rate and breathing decreased, which we figured was something of a coping mechanism for my body). Now my leg starts hurting even the slightest bit more than normal and I want to curl up and cry. What happened to me?

A friend of mine passed away Friday July 16, and then a second friend passed away on July 23. I was on vacation last week but ended up spending a good deal of it either dealing with those deaths or dealing with whatever stomach bug I had Wednesday and Thursday. Not fun. The calling hours for the second friend were yeserday and the funeral was today. It's been stressful.

By the time I got home from work today I realized how much pain my ankle is in. It's incredible. I can't remember the last time I've felt pain this severe. OTC pain killers aren't touching it and my stimulator is having no effect :'( I miss that wonderful coping mechanism I used to have.

So how am I coping today? For now I'm laying on the couch with my leg elevated, watching TV. Hopefully I'll be able to get a bit of sleep tonight and the pain will have decreased a bit by tomorrow. If not it's going to be a long way until Friday.